student days when I suffered from mental illness


When I was a junior and high school student, I would often be interfered with by spiritual beings on a daily basis, ranging from a high ranked spirit to a low ranked one. I was suffering in great pain. My body was always heavy and I felt dizzy all the time. I looked pale and was skin and bones. I couldn’t put on weight no matter how much I ate. I was lifeless as if  all of my energy was being absorbed by something. I couldn’t sleep well at night because some spiritual being came close to me.

  • would often ~ よく〜したものだった
  • interfere with A Aに干渉する
  • on a daily basis 日常的に
  • high ranked 高位の
  • suffer 苦しむ
  • pain 苦しみ
  • feel dizzy 目眩がする
  • all the time いつも
  • look pale 顔色が悪い
  • skin and bones ガリガリの
  • put on weight 太る
  • no matter how~ どれくらい〜でも
  • lifeless 生気がない
  • as if S+V あたかもSがVするかのように
  • absorb 吸収する
  • come close to A Aに近づく

For example, when our family was driving through a tunnel along the coast near Shirahama-onsen(白浜温泉)in Wakayama prefecture, I was the only one in the car who could hear a lot of children making a ball rebound and laughing. And every night, after we came home, I had the sound of a lot of children who drowned making a ball rebound and their laughter echoe in my head. I became suicidally depressed without reason. I felt like drowning myself to death. It turned out that the tunnel was along the coast where a lot of drowned bodies gathered naturally because of the waves of the sea.

  • prefecture 県
  • make a ball rebound 鞠をつく
  • drown 溺死する
  • laghter 笑い声
  • echo こだまする
  • become depressed 鬱になる
  • feel like ~ing 〜したい気がする
  • drown oneself to death 入水自殺する
  • It turns out that… 後で…とわかる
  • gather 集まる
  • because of A Aのために
  • wave 波

Also, when I was sleeping in my room, a dragon god appeared and was coiling itself up in the middle of the room. Then it spoke to me. The voice, strange to say, sounded like a series of high-pitched sound of a whistle. It sounded like an electronic sound, too. But the meaning was transmitted to my brain.

  • dragon god 龍神
  • coil oneself up とぐろを巻く
  • speak to A Aに話しかける
  • strange to say 奇妙な事に
  • a series of A 一連の
  • high-pitched sound 高音
  • electronic sound 電子音
  • meaning 意味
  • transmit 伝える

In addition, when I was a college student living with my parents, my room being upstairs, I heard some subdued voices from downstairs almost every night after all of my families got to sleep. So, trying to get over my physical weakness and causeless depression, I read a lot of books on psychiatry and practised spiritual trainings. But all these trainings were just to confine or avoid the phenomenon and they did not bring about fundamental improvement.

  • in addition 更に
  • subdued voice ぼそぼそという声
  • get to sleep 寝付く
  • get over A Aを克服する
  • weakness 弱さ
  • causeless 原因不明の
  • psychiatry 精神医学
  • practise 実践する
  • confine 閉じ込める
  • avoid 避ける
  • phenomenon 現象
  • bring about A Aをもたらす
  • fundemantal 根本的な
  • improvement 改善

There is nothing more troublesome than causeless depression. If you start to hold a memorial service for your ancestors and you get depressed, you don’t have to worry. It’s just that some spirits inside of yourself which needed consolation appeared on the surface. Offsprings who avoid and don’t hold any memorial service for their ancestors would have to experience the time sooner or later when the spirits inside of and related to them appear on the surface at once. The symptom then would be mental illness or serious diseases. This is why family members who suffer from similar diseases and mental illness exist in the same family line.

  • troublesome 厄介な
  • memorial service 供養
  • ancestor 先祖
  • don’t have to~ 〜する必要はない
  • worry 心配する
  • consolation 慰め
  • on the surface 表面に
  • offspring 子孫
  • experience 経験する
  • sooner or later 遅かれ早かれ
  • related to A Aに関係した
  • at once 同時に
  • symptom 症状
  • mental illness 精神疾病
  • disease 病気
  • This is why S+V こういうわけでSはVするのです
  • exist 存在する
  • family line 家系

Since some spirits are suffering from similar symptoms in the spiritual line of the family, these symptoms are being projected on their offsprings. Therefore, if there are few spirits who are suffering and wandering about in a family line, their offsprings would never have any symptoms when they start holding a memorial service for ancestors.

  • since S+V SはVするので
  • project 投影する
  • therefore それゆえ
  • wander about 彷徨う

Only after I came to remind myself of gratitude, repeating the word spirit  “I Ka Shi Te I Ta Da I Te  A Ri Ga To U Go Za I Ma Su“( Thank you so much for keeping us alive,) , which was endowed with me after I visited Geku(外宮) of Ise Grand Shrine (伊勢神宮), and to practice holding memorial services for my ancestors did I become free of all of the spiritual interferences and sound in mind and body.

  • only after S+V SがVして初めて
  • remind oneself of A Aを思い出す
  • gratitude 感謝の気持ち
  • word spirit 言霊
  • endow A with B AをBに授ける
  • free of A Aがない
  • sound 健康な
  • in mind and body 心身共に

I Ka Shi Te I Ta Da I Te  A Ri Ga To U Go Za I Ma Su

生かして頂いて ありがとう御座位ます

Thank you so much for keeping us alive.